Debby Downer’s Digestion
It’s going to be one of those posts. You know the type I am talking about. The type that I sound very ungrateful and whiny. So before the whining begins, let me first say that I am very grateful for my life. In fact, I am very, very grateful I am alive at all. With that said, I must say the last couple weeks have been more than a little difficult. My health “issues” are the reason I consider myself a resistant hermit. But I do enjoy some good weeks, even an occasional great week, then eventually the rough, bad, painful days come back.
Even at the best of times, I need to plan everything. What I am doing for the day, when I am doing it, where I am going…..then I plan my eating accordingly. And because what goes in, must come out….I will have an hour or two of problems. Again, that is on my best days.
I won’t describe my last couple weeks in detail. Really, I will spare you. But I will say I have a choice of eating one large meal and having humdinger of “issues” for a few hours, or I can eat small meals throughout my day and have moderate “issues” all day long. Yep, those are my two choices. Doesn’t matter what I eat. Well maybe a little. If I have too much gluten, too much meat, wine, soda, etc…..Well, I might as well not move for the rest of the day. Doctors say this is probably as good as it will ever get for me. What I eat, when I eat, medications, etc. will only made a small difference.
I could go back to an ostomy, but as Doctor L said, because of my very damaged intestines, and my skin sensitivities, there is no guarantee that I will enjoy more freedom. And once I get an ostomy, there is no going back. I do not have enough intestines to have a reversal.
I do apologize for this post. Really sounds depressing and I sound like a Debby Downer. I really try not to write about my colorectal syndrome issues very often. And I will try not to post another for as long as I can. It’s just that my “issues” the last couple weeks have been overwhelming and it does affect how much I can and can not do, where I go, etc. And as I don’t see any relief anytime soon, thought I should just put it all out there.
Today, I am planning on visiting my sister Kathy, picking up dog food for my mom’s dog, and dropping some things off at my mom’s house. I have been up since 3:00 this morning, so I will be dragging by this afternoon. But by then I should be home, unless “issues” prevent me from going at all.