Today is LL’s birthday. He is 52 years old. We have plans to take Max along with a few others to the casino later this afternoon and evening. That is the plan, but we are staying flexible. Right now, to be honest, I am struggling with my faith. Too much hurt and unfairness going on and hitting too close to home. Because I am struggling, in the past, I would almost divorce myself from God when feeling like He has left me. Because it is lent, I am going to try something different and hope it helps. Instead of giving up something for lent, I guess in my time of confusion, I am going to seek, even stalk God. Go to Mass when ever I can, even during the week. I have decided to get better on my daily devotionals. I pray every morning but don’t always open my bible. So I back to reading scriptures. I decided to start with Jesus’s words. I have been reading and digesting Matthew 25. Running from God when I am angry at him has not helped me at all……Maybe being like a little child, hounding him for answers is what I need to do. I may not get answers, but maybe I will get some comfort.